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[17 Aug 2005|11:28pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

well...I went to camden Park today as boring as the rides are i had a pretty good time for once in my life i saw Terry He was makin the funnel cakes...And my he gave my mom a ciggerette that's say when a 44 year old is bumming a cigg off of a 16 year old..Yeah. I have to get up at 7:30 in the morning to watch morgan as much as i don't want to but i figure if i did Ashley will pay me more friday .. i'm goin to the mall Friday Yay haven't been in a while.. Yup yup well that's about it i'm out

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= ( [14 Aug 2005|10:07pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | girl fight ]

I hate life right now...Nothin is going my way and it sucks..I just want everyone to leave me alone right now and they wont i'm starting to scare myself really bad..In really BAD way. Grr i hate it..I want to die

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[11 Aug 2005|12:03am]
[ mood | tired ]

..."Trust"...I'm having a lot of "trust" issues right now can someone please help me out? I have really learned to not trust anyone lately and i'm starting to scare myself from being so lonely all the time..I wont explain why but..nevermind it doesn't matter..I'v had a looong day and i'm VERY tired

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[09 Aug 2005|11:15pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

So much drama OMg.....Grrr I wish i could tell u all about it but i just don't have time. i don't wanna go back to school I dread it i would rather be hung but my freakin ears and have people throw darts at me then go back to sv i hate it !!! i'll go nuts this year i swear 3rd times a charm ya know? Wellp i'm out grrrrrrr bye

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[07 Aug 2005|05:28pm]
True story: A religion teacher assigned her class an essay on what makes a good Christian. One student wrote about praying nightly, say no to abortion, banning gay marriage, and donating money. The other student wrote about talking to God and allowing people to enjoy their lives, and supporting gay marriage. The day the teacher was to hand the papers back, she called up the second student and told him she would pray for him when he went to hell. The student asked why would he be going to hell, and why he got an F on his paper. The teacher told him that Catholisim is against gay marriage. The student looked at her for a minute, then said aloud, "I'm gay." The teacher kicked him out of class as if he had cursed or confessed to worshiping Satan. A girl in the back of class who had a boyfriend and was obviously straight got up and left too.

If you would leave the classroom, repost this. It doesn't matter if you're straight, bi, or gay. It doesn't matter if you're catholic or not. Everyone is a human being and deserves happiness.
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*yay* [07 Aug 2005|04:36pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Three simple words ]

*~*BASICS*~*
First Name: Hillary
Middle Name: Rene'
Any Nickmames:Pill, Hillpill, Hill
Age: 16
Birthdate: May 13, 1989
Zodiac Sign: taurus
Where were you born at: huntington
Where do you live: kenova (unfourtunatly)
Have you ever moved: When i was lil
If so, where did you move from and to where: like a house away
Eye Color: green
Hair Color: Brown
Hair Length: long
wavy/straight/curly hair: curly but i mostly straighten it
Height: 5'5
Skin(pale,white,tan,dark,black): kind of tan kind of pale
Have you ever dyed your hair: Highlights
If so, what color: Blonde
School: SPRING VALLEY (unfourtunatly)
Grade: 10th
Mascot: a stupid wolfe
Name 5 words to describe yourself: Bored, depressed, and lonely
Siblings: 2
Names: Whitney, and miss
Parents Names: Timothy & teresa
Pets: YEP
If so,how many and whats their names: 1dog and 1 cat
Any Tattoos: No
Any Piercings: Ya
Braces: nope
Freckles: yes some
glasses/contacts: none

*~*FRIENDS*~*

***Of your friends which is the.....

Best: Paige
Funniest: i guess paige
Prettiest: All of them i guess
Smartest: ...Not sure
Craziest: Jason
Most likely to succeed: indyia
Hangs with you most: Paige
Best Style: i dunno
Flirtiest: PAIGE!!!
Quietest: No one
Loudest: of the ones i have all of em
Sweetest: umm i dunno
One you share all your secrets with: Paige
Wierdest: I don't have that many friends
Blondest: Paige
the one that lives farthest away: Paige
the one that lives closest: Sandra
One you have known the longest: Sandra

*~*Love Life*~*

GF/BF/Single: Single.. : (
If you have a BF/GF whats there name:
How long have you been together:
Are you in love with them:
Do you have a crush: Sorta
Name:
Does this person know: Sorta
Do you think you will ever date this person: i dunno
First Kiss: never had a first kiss
First Crush: Don't remeber
Last BF/GF you had: never had a bf
Do you still like them:
Have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry: ...
What was your worst breakup: never broke up with anyone
What is the longest relationship you have been in: never had a relationship
With who:
Why did you all break up:
What is the first thing you notice about a guy/girl when you meet them: Eyes
Turn On: good personality has to make me laugh
Turn Off: being to into themselves
Have you ever fell in love with a friend: nope
Would you rather have a long term relationship or date around: Longterm
If love were a color it would be: bloodred
If love were a shape it would be: star
Whats your idea of a perfect date: I don't think it matters i'll never have a date anyways
Whats your ideal guy/girl: Someone who can make me laugh even when i'm on the verge of suicide

*~*FUTURE*~*

Do you want to get married: Yea
If so,what age would you like to be married: I don't care as long as i love him
Who will you marry: doubt i will
What do you want to do when grow up: something that has to do with music
Where will you live: For away from here
Do you want to have kids? maybe
If so, how many: 1
What would you name them: I don't know

*~*THIS OR THAT*~*

Coke/Pepsi: neither
Pen/Pencil: Pen
Vanilla/Chocolate: vanilla
hug/kiss: Kiss
lights on/off: Off
dark/light: DARK!!
rose/lilys: ROSE
boy/girl: Boy
Dr Pepper/Mt.Dew: Mt.dew
McDonalds/Burger King: Burger King
sandals/shoes: shoes
NSync/BSB: .....ya right
Britney/Christina: Christina Britney is a fuckin coke head
Justin Timberlake/Nick Carter: are you serious?
CD/Tape: CD.
Phone/Computer: Computer
Skittles/M'n'M's: Skittles
rich and unhappy/poor and happy: either way i'm prob not gonna be happy
tootsie pops/blow pops: BLOW POPS
1 pillow/or 2: 2

*~*COMPUTER*~*

What kind of computer do you have: a cheap one
How many S/N's do you have: a few but i'm only on 2 of them
What kind of messengers do you have: AIM & AOL &yahoo
How many emaild addys do you have: 3
How many buddies are on your buddy list: 127 but i only talk to a few of them VERY FEW
How many buddies are online right now: 9
Which ones are you talking to: no one
How do you know them: a few of them from school 2 of them from paige
How often do you stay on the internet: A lot

*~*FAVORITES*~*

color: Red
food: i dunno
song: Lots
Group: lots
Movie: thirteen, butterfly effect, uptown girls, Ammityville horror,
Tv Show: Real world , viva la bam, andy milonokais
Beverage: water or sprite
Alcoholic beverage: hehe...
subject: None
teacher: none i hate everything about sv
store in the mall: hot topic
radio station: 106.3
flower: I dunno
book: ...Hmm dunno
day of the week: Fridays
animal:cat
holiday: christmas
sport: i don't really have one
fast food: Subway
color to wear: Black
number: 13
actress: Dakota Fanning, brittany murphy, julia styles
actor: Chris farly (yet he is dead) David spade, adam sandler
MTV Show:Real world viva la bam (didn't i already answer this)
place to eat: Apple bees
ice cream flavor: ice cream cake yummy
magazine: i dunno whatever looks good on the cover

*~*Questions*~*

Have you ever cheated on a test: Yeah
Cut your own hair: No
Dyed your own hair: No
Have you ever been in a fight: yes
If so,how many times: a few
Skinny Dipped: nope
Skipped School: yes
Stayed home on a Saturday: yeah all the time ( i know pathetic
Streaked: Nope
Toilet papered someones house/car: nope
Paintballed someones house/car etc: nope
Got toilet papered: once
Smoked Weed: Yes
Been so drunk you puked: nope
been drunk: yes
Got in trouble with the police: sorta
Went to a concert: Yeah
played spin the bottle: nope
played 7 minutes in heaven: nope
ran away from home: nope
stolen something: nope
broken a bone: yes
cheated on a BF/GF: never had one
fell asleep in class: Yeah
gone to jail/juvenile: Nope
been in the hospital: nope
gotten lost on a vacation: nope

*~*What/Who do you think of when you hear the name.....

Tara- grahm
Jeremy- my cousin
Joe- 's crab shack
Shane- the twin
Billy- Bobs
Tim- My dad
Josh- Caldwell
Ashley- hush
Ben- d over
Amanda- lowe
Sally- the hair place
Sweet Pea- lotion
Peanut butter- and jelly
Hay- Is for horses
David- I dunno
Derrick-i unno
Danny- smith
Allen- my dads middle name
Jodie- i dunno
Michelle- my neighbor
Crystal- Clear
Brandon- lowe
Jamie- the guy at speedway
Kelly- i dunno
Heather- i dunno
Beth- i dunno
Mike- my uncle
Justin - i dunno
Stacey- i dunno
Isaac- i dunno


*~*THE LAST....

thing you ate: Crackers
thing you drank: Gatorade
song you heard: three simple words - finch
show you watched: i don't remeber
thing you said: dammit
person you saw: my mom
person who called you: umm Paige i think
person you called: Paige
person you hugged: Uhh will
person you kissed: Will i think
person to ride in your car: I haven't drove my car yet i have to get license on it
who's car you rode in: Brendas
told you they loved you: ...I don't remeber
movie you watched: somethin on disney channel
person you talked to on the internet: ummm i think shayne
person that instant messaged you: Shayne

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...eh [04 Aug 2005|10:09pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

One more day gone in this dreadful life of mine. I'm sooo tired and ..that's it. I went to the movies and say about half an hour of a stupid really stupid movie then left , i'm about to fall asleep and it's only 10:30 i am dreading the whole back to school thing it's depressing me A LOT i hate sv it makes me wanna hang myself i swear but anywho. i'm gonna hang out with paige and "get my mind of things" lol Anyways. i'm out Bye guyzzz

oh ya buy the way i'm sick of this damn layout anyone got any ideas?? or got a new layout ??

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[02 Aug 2005|11:31pm]
[ mood | & Depressed ]
[ music | running (dying to live) Tupac and biggie ]

i'm on the verge of a break down right now..I found some really sad news out tonight it made me almost cry. I listend to a sad song and of course it made me freakin' cry what doesn't these days. Someone looks at me wrong and i'm cryin it's driving me crazy i hate the way i am all this shit + going back to school i hate it. well shit. I'm just givin upppp..LAter guys

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..Depressed.. [01 Aug 2005|02:55am]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Ohio is for lovers ]

..I can't seem to smile or laugh at all.. I feel like crap ...well here's some +'s and -'s for the day

-I feel depressed
+Paige came buy today
+her step dad is moving out (woohoo!)
-she wont be going to sv this year (boohoo)
+I get to hang out with her more now that todd is leaving
-I miss a certain someone
-I don't want to go to sv
+I get to drive this year
-but not to the school i want to be at
+i saw sandra today
+Her belly is BIGGGG (or bigger then usual)
+She's having a girl
-She wont go to sv this year either
-seems like all my friends are
moving away or quitting school
-boys really suck right now
-I feel that i am getting back into
my "old" yet "same" "habbit" : (

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Breakdown... [30 Jul 2005|02:45am]
I can't handle it anymore my mom is about to make me kill myself i'm about to just end it all i can't stand this shit
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....blah blah. [30 Jul 2005|01:58am]
[ mood | irritated ]
[ music | Failure buy designe - Brand New ]

..lets see... Last night was BORING .. didn't do nothin got up this morning went and babysat my cousin. Then came home and went to sleep then my neighbor came in and woke me up because my mom thought i'd passed out again because i wasn't answering my phone.so i woke up got dressed woke will up got him dressed then i went with my mom to get something to eat then to pick whitney up then to my cousins to see my lil twin cousins olivia and lily. they are so cute. then came home cleaned a lil then got online. and now here i am..tired and about to scream : D

+i don't have to get up early in the morning

- I wont have a car all day tomorrow to go anywhere in

+ my parents are going to be out of town all day

+i wont have to hear either one of them bitch at me

-i'm very tired

-i'm waiting on someone to im me but they wont

+Paige is going to be staying with her mom for a while

-Todd hasn't left yet : (

+But i still get to hang out with paige

-I saw jimmy walking last night with 2 guys

-he was walking kind of close to paiges moms

-That sucks

+I'm goin to bed


NIGHT!

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GODD i'm so pissed off [26 Jul 2005|11:59pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I hate Jimmy!!! He's so stupid..He's calling paige and harassing her telling her that he's gonna beat her ass and shit it's stupid LET IT GO MAN! then he tells her he's gonna kill himself he's fuckin retarded other then that my night was GREAT i got to hang out with paige and we went driving . she's gonna be staying here for a while i thinkk . : D I'm wayyy excited lol Jimmy is still stupid and i wanna kick his ass REALLLLLLY BADDDD anywho that's about it

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Bad day [25 Jul 2005|10:52pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Well today was wounderful..It was sooo miserably hott. I was up all night last night because my dad was working on the kitchen drilling and hammering drilling and sawing drilling.yeah u get it..i was about to scream. i could have cried this morning when he started hammering again. SERIOUSLY. Anyways. I'm really really tired and i gotta get up EARLY in the morning to watch morgan. yeah. Can someone Comment so i can see if anyone really reads this thing kuz if not then i'm going to delete it

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..tired..and weak.. [25 Jul 2005|01:58am]
[ mood | depressed ]

I'm so out of it..I'm tired. bitchy. depressed. worried. Mad. I could go on and on. No one seems to understand anymore so i just gave up.. or atleast i'm giving up tomorrow i will have gave up..Nevermind again you probably wouldn't understand if i showed you. anyways i'm out..Later

So long..And good night

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...Paranoid... [21 Jul 2005|08:59pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Ohio is for lovers ]

I'm really freaked out..Yesterday i made a comment to my sister about someone then in a sort of ina messed and twisted way it kind of happend... : ( i'm not talking about anyone anymore i'm not saying anything bad about ANYONE, It seems like anything i say or if i think about something bad it happens and it really really freaks me out. especially today when i found out something happend i'm not saying anything...then i found out some really bad news today and it's kind of gotten me down..so.. i'm kind of depressed other then that i'm excited i'm getting my room redid though.. We are going to paint it white and baby blue : D Paige called me night before last but i was at themovies with whitney then when we were on our way home i stopped at matts and buy the time i got home she was back at her dads i'm hoping she's at her mommy's tomorrow because i MISS her sooooo much she's been in scottland and hasn't been at her moms lately...i'v felt a little lost this summer Whitney is hardly ever home Paige isn't here..No one to hang out with..Dustin left..So there's another friend gone... don't really see sandra too much anymore i'v seen indyia 2 times this summer and that's it...So any takers for a new friend i'm open : l...but anyways that's just about it..

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ehh [19 Jul 2005|09:34am]
[ mood | & depressed ]

...I didn't even want to get up this morning but will woke me so i had to..I feel really bad for Whitney she knew Micheal webb they were good friends she's really upset..and she told me some other stuff that upset her too last night and she never talks to me at all. She never even gets emotional.. NEVER and i thought she was goin to last night which she did a lil bit..


I MISS PAIGE : ( I needa talk to her maybe she'll be at her mom's friday i saw her mom yesterday when i was driving and she wasn't with her but her lil brother was was so i'm guessin she's back from scottland.

Anyways that's about it..not that it was important but i was bored..

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not in the mood... [18 Jul 2005|11:00pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Hawthorn heights ]

I hate people...I'm not having a good weekend it just sucks i wanna lay down and cry and die..And well u guys know the rest ..but it's not even like anyone reads this damn thing. I got bored and decided to comment on someones lj which it will probably be a big argument but i just had to put my 2 sense in NOTHING AGAINST ya..But i just hate how people are all hyped up on fashion..SORRY ...Anyways i feel like shit we have accomplished one emotion. nobody is talking to me..but why should they..oh well i don't care ..i shouldn't have all along.

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awful night.. [13 Jul 2005|11:36am]
[ mood | tired ]

Well yesterday i pretty much just layed around and then whitney wanted me to take her to her friends house so i took her and sat and talked to them for a lil bit then came home went to the kitchen to take some medicine,passed out..so i was at the hospital all night last night..it sucked they did a cat scan. gave me a shot. and done a pregnancy test...hmm go figure..we waited the longest on the resluts for the pregnancy test. I could damn well asure them that i am not pregnant. lol but anyways that's about it.

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Sick..Blah [11 Jul 2005|11:47pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | nothing ]

well i'm sick my i can barely breathe ..Matt came over sat. night we were supposed to watch hide and seek but he spent the whole time fixing the computer..I love him for it! so i didn't get to watch it so i watched it this morning while everyone was sleeeeeeping. Yep yep. i went to the dr. today they gave me a bunch of meds blaaaah i hate keeping up with medicine. but anywho that's about it love u guyz

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[09 Jul 2005|02:15am]
[ mood | depressed ]

..I just want EVERYONE to go away..

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